oh mann.when was the last time i update this. last week? ahaa!my fault. i'm just too lazy. plus those studying periods for class test. which is basically also consider last minute too. ahaa! i miss a lot of things here.Firstly, boyfie check-upsim getting worried for his health these daysdoctor at NUH have suspect smt regarding his health (to certain ppl, eu shuld understand)but its not purely confirm yet. hope everythings fine. *praying hard.maybe due to this worrying 'thingy', i'm easily pissed and feeling very annoyed. i dont understand why but it naturally that way. maybe i just need to control this emotion.2nd-ly, MB class testgosh! i think i'm gonna screwed this paper. especially the 2 last pages. *darn! i should just concentrate more on it then just browsing it thru.i just couldn't refresh what i've browse.. *damn it lah.luckily, i've absorb the 1st & 2nd half of lecture notes plus those revision notesso 1st few pages im kinda safe. *phew!hopefully the answers were correct and maybe it could at least bring me to a pass level*hopefully... finger-cross -_-3rd-ly, lurve lyfelurve lyfe was just amazing..i'm feeling as if i'm in cloud nine or somethingthe lurve, the sacrifices and everything was just purfectnot forgetting, missing boyfie lots too. as he was staying over at his aunt place for the meantimelooking after 'my babies' (Mira & Amir) as what one of his aunt said since they were lurving their new aunty thats mie. *grinmanage only to just meet him twice this week. and surely glad to meet him yesterday when he came over :) but it was kinda sweett & touchingg to see him nearly tears but was already sobbing when he was about to leave saying he misses me badly and never misses anyone till this bad until now and only for me.it's definitely a great, wonderful feeling. but guys will be guys. so i'll just wait and see :) :hearts:definitely lurving eu lots boyfie..
4th-ly, new baby born
went to Cikgu Zelda hse yesterday after school with Firman & Mazni. as she had just given birth last tuesday.
too bad the baby can't went home due to 'sakit kuning' normal sickness for babies who is just born.
so sad.. we'll pray that he's going to be alrite soon. did i just say he?? haha.
so 3 heroes i guess eu gotten cikgu.. nvm, try again for another, this tyme its a heroin,kay. haha.
guess i just have to see the baby during the hari raye gathering this year. insyallah.
we share stories amoung each other to catch those missing tymes. glad to see her doing fine.
before boyfie arrival, lepak with these great peeps of mine *above-(mazni & firman) around my area till 9.30pm.
had great chats. then accompany mie going KFC for a late dinner for the whole family and went home.
lastly, personal clarification
*emotional tyme-sorrie peeps
Okie maybe I'm just 'ter-rase' in ur blog. but whatever it is, I'm clearing things out with eu here. whether eu are going to read it or not.
to eu..
eu may thought that im angry with eu or something but actually im NOT. I just need to make changes for myself.
1st-ly, we are always late for classes and I can't stand of losing lots of facts and struggling at the back while others are already forward. so im making the effort to come early with other peeps/cliques but im still not forgetting eu- everyday without hesitation, im always there sms-ing eu when im going out and meet eu as usual but eu are the one asking me to proceed on since eu are going to be late. Okie im fine with that but remember our resolution this year. *(we wont be late for school anymore...) yet eu said 'i left eu.' *wtf. eu may think im selfish coz I'm doing for my own benefits. but I have too, I don't want to get warning letter before examination and really wanting to score well. My results is the key to bring me to another level. im no longer keen of coming late for classes. studying 1/2 of lecture is really not worth it. it's better off not coming for lesson at all
2nd-ly, I just had enuf with ur lies. I noe eu well enuf. eu are the one that used to be there when everything happens.thnks.apprecaite it. bt bcoz' of this reason too, I some how not wanting to talk to eu about my personal lyfe to eu in details or just in slight brief. did eu ever notice that? im talking to eu everything just in general. just bcoz' of the incident of telling the truth to someone, eu lied about someone fetching eu just bcoz' ey are frighten that I would tell the other someone. come on lah, I already noe it, even if eu don't tell. yet I'm keeping shuts except last 2 days when that someone wanted to noe what's going on. then what? this tyme taking revenge when im close with this particular someone. reporting all those info(s). expecting to cause chaos within mie. stop it. doesn't mean I'm keeping shut I don't noe whats going on. Furthermore, WE never fight. even himself noes what's going on.. im telling every details of what's happening about mie in school everytime. And he even clarify to that someone about it plus we noe our limits. every thing was in a joking atmosphere. Get it! eu don't even get the whole picture. Plus for ur info, the other someone got a gf already. plus at least we are doing this infront of everyone. not lyke eu lying behind our back. Not forgetting, ur 'tknk kalah' attitude too. this is lyfe. what people have may not be what eu NEED to have.
him & mie had just enuf of it & everything.
to eu-eu..
don't ever think eu are not appreciated by me/ not even good enuf for me. or even thinking they are the one pulling me to the another direction.
I appreciate it lots whenever im with eu guys. only that im just more comfortable with them and it's also my choice.only for the mean tyme im hafing 'enuf feeling' with eu. kay,NOT saying that im not comfortable with eu guys. but sometimes there's just this barrier of 'only urs private talking thingy' going on where the other cliques doesn't have. both grps still have laughter & enjoyment in it.and i'm lurving at both sides. Personal Talking, I really have no probs with eu-eu guys. why not sometime, eu guys just hang out with us in school. they are not as bad as what eu people might think. im sorie if eu guys felt that way. I really do. I myself at first don't noe how to separate myself. if I just have the ability to cut myself into two, I might think of doing it too. sorrie.
**i cried when i wrote this.. :(
PS: sorrie peeps, this last entry may sound draggy about my personal 'thingy'.
but i guess its the only way so its doesn't bottle up in this heart of mine.
not forgetting HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO-HUZ. :)