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Monday, May 19, 2008



HAPPY VESAK DAY for those of my friends who is celebrating it..

celebrate my holiday with boyfie. 1st watch Qabil Khushry Qabil Igam with him at my house together with my family. sad-sad story & super the touching lah.. i almost cried watching it plus boyfie by the side watching my reaction towards the show. 'consentrasi nampak'-thats what he will comment. *argh! & of coz lah i will concentrate if not i wont be able to understand it,furthermore:my favourite actor is acting-Hans Isaac. gosh! gosh! he is just so the handsome. i can easily melt. haiz..









kay-kay..enuf. after watching the show, went out with boyfie to town as to accompany Abg Yan(boyfie cuzzie) to purchase his new hp. meet him half way. then off to the desired shop. bought what he wanted then shopping-for them lah of coz'. *haha. went to this shop & boyfie got caught on these pair of white pants. looking him wear just melts mie. modal around the shop then took this pair of sunglasses to match with his pants.. the glasses were just for tryinglah. but it really suits boyfie's face. even one of the sales man said he looks lyke one of the singer. *argh! kembang ar tu. perasan. boyfie plan to buy the glasses next tyme when he got the money. the pants was Abg Yan treat. it cost $89 okie. expensive rite. must say thanks to Abg Yan. *haha. Abg Yan also bought something then went for late lunch & headed home. :)
BABY.. I LURVE EU!!
mwah.mwah.mwah.mwah.mwah....


baby, i swear; it's eu.....Y
10:30 PM





Sunday, May 18, 2008











sorie bout the previous post on the early morning nag. for those who could read,congrets. those who cant, its just nothing. its just one of those human flaws.
today was just perfect. was at home for mostly the whole afternoon except late afternoon. 1st went out with boyfie. then went out with family to the hospital to meet my aunty who is sick. had chats & if her health is fine insyallah.. her family will bring me go diving these december holiday. *haha. yahoo. need to save-save lots of ka-ching for it. daddy & mama have already agree to it. after the hospital visit, met boyfie. he came over to the house & had dinner with us. my mama cook him his favourite dish- 'sambal tubis telur' which my mom cooked. he lurve that. after dinner- watch television, chats, played with the siblings etc.. my grandma join the fun too since she is here. haha. my family lykes him. the details are just so much to say. so i just keep it short. the day was just so purfect. lurving it lots. i spend my day with two of my beloved darlinks.. FAMILY & BOYFIE!

pictures in random...






baby, i swear; it's eu.....Y
11:30 PM






i wrote this right after we chat on the phone.
even its late night.. im still writting this to let everything out..


i didnt noe what more to say. every word eu didnt listen, afterwards complain as if i've never advised about it. hearing eu whine just makes me feel mad. even if i've said not too yet eu will still do it & complain about it to ask for my pityness as if i've asked eu to do it. argh! *smack!
and if i've shut up, eu siad i dont care, if i said it,i siad it before & eu wont listen.. eu blame yourself. then what am i suppose to do->take both side.. deep in me, i just wanted to say 'ENUF!' but i didnt have the heart to do it. pity eu coz' eu are still sick but waht am i suppose to say, listen & shut up, siad that i've said before, blame myself, blame eu?? WHAT!! can eu for once feel what i'm feeling.. im crying silently & yet eu have not notice it. then with all the silents decided to put down the phone. *arghh!!
how i wish i could just scream in the middle of the night now, hoping my tears will just stop. there's really no one who's there to hear all my whines. everyone has its own lyfe. besties: syafiq- tired after his China training &NS lyfe,mazni- has her own relationship probs, saiful- has his own probs & werking lyfe to settle, weiyang- has his own probs but as usual we meet up to catch things up. lastly, alif- has his own lyfe. furthermore we are no longer acting lyke before. watever lah. he is the own who's changing.i've promise myself not to contect him any longer. plus:if eu are reading this- there's not point of eu telling me eu are going for NS next mth. nothing changing. but even so.. these 4 bestie (syafiq, mazni, weiyang & saiful) will i always keep in touch. eu guys are just the greatest. unlike some people, got some feeling & after got to noe im attached (not that i've nvr told them) they change lots. as if they have no longer space in me. hey, i still believe friendship last longer. not lyke some realationship after broke up. there's surely some odd reactions. (applys to some ar). these bestie are the once who understands me the most.
argh! maybe silents are much better before i nag the whole thingy.


baby, i swear; it's eu.....Y
2:25 AM





Saturday, May 17, 2008












these few days .. as what boyfie said 'im just being the great gf that he would ever had.' not to compliment myself but it is some real fact. boyfie said numerous tymes & 'mama' kept saying she was lucky to have me as his son's gf. i just smile. hoping this will last!
*finger cross.


kay! enuf of it. let me give some simple reasons to support the facts. on 15may'08, after getting my blood taken for Hepititis B test at school before rushing to NUH to accompany boyfie for his 'one-day operation thingy' together with 'mama' & nas (boyfie lil'bro). boyfie went to the surgery room around 3.30pm & everything ended at 8.30pm. included his rest tyme etc. he was able to go home on the day itself. but the results will only be released in 1 weeks tyme from the 'operation' date. the doctor has also subscribe some medicine too while waiting for the results as an act of precaution. took boyfie home, fed him dinner before going home alone. even he insisted on sending, i sill asked hime to stay home & rest.
Next day after school, since it ends early. only for ONLY a lesson. went to his house to check on him. 'mama' was really glad to see me too. at least she said 'she noes that i would be taking good care of him'. boyfie joined the conversation & said, 'mama really lykes mie' then 'mama' just smile. *haha. fed him, played games with him, massage his back etc. luckily mama just smile. *haha. :) boyfie seems to be still weak but at least he was slightly better than before.
that same night(friday), my besties,Syafiq smses saying he's back from his China training trip. cheh! ingat jugak org tu kat sini. asl sampai s'pore je lang. *haha. dah2 rest well.anything beep mie. :) we'll catch things up :) tc.
yesterday. just being at home babysitting. bored. sian.
boyfie went redhill to his aunt's place. :)

lyfe..
lyfe has its own sweetness & bitterness. god has sent some challenges coz' he noes that we were able to face. with this experience, it will make us grow to think & be a better & mature person. able to think wisely & not rushing to any conclusion. i've accept it & so far it went off so good. amin.. it does makes the relationship grows stronger even with all the responsibility we have. now boyfie & i noe that in each responsibility comes with commitment, sincerity, cared, loved,concern etc. but nothing is perfects so there's still ups & down in lyfe. i'll be there for eu now dear. i lurve eu.


baby, i swear; it's eu.....Y
11:25 PM





Monday, May 12, 2008













BCT(prac) class test is alrite & managable. i have faith towards it. now i would just hope all my skills are fine during performing it. writting wise, i guess it would be fine... :) *praying hard..
after BCT(prac) class test, 'porn' AC(prac) lesson just to accompany boyfie & 'mama'(his mom) to NUH for his check-up as usual. his appointment is at 1pm & i reach at 1.15pm. *oops! sorie dear. im slightly late. plus, boyfie has been telling me that during the waiting period 'mama' kept prompting him: 'where's iRa? is she reaching yet?' to boyfie, he felt that 'mama' really misses mie. what's more towards 'mama' reactions when i've reach. her big wide smiles & laughter when boyfie is there joking about my lateness. *smack. but its kinda true on what boyfie said about 'mama' been missing me coz' her behaviour seems slightly different.
kay, enuf of it, went to the X-ray appointment 1st- had boyfie top part of the body check then to the 2nd appointment-doctor clinic to see what the doctor have to say about it. now finalise;the doctor didnt even noe what kind of prob only suspect of boyfie getting tuberculosis. but the doctor wasnt even sure coz' its already been more than 3 mths & boyfie still didnt get any symptoms yet which is strange. furthermore, none of the faimly line has tuberculosis. so the doctor suggest him to go on this one day kinda lyke operation thingy: floroscope. so the doctor could get a sample of it & will do a analysis toward it so they would confirm what wrong with boyfie. the day of the one day kinda lyke operation wil be held on 15 may 08,that will be on this coming Thursday at 2pm. its a safe process but he is scared of leaving everyone including myself. i've tell him not to think of such thoughts & be strong.. coz' i'll be there by his side when he woke up after his short sleep during the 'operation thingy' & everything. 'i'll be there no matter what happens dear. eu haf to be strong for us.' hearing that just makes him smile so did 'mama'. everyone is scared but somehow someone must be strong so boyfie will have the faith. i'll always be there for eu boyfie. mwah! ♥

NOT FORGETTING..
HAPPY ADVANCE 19th BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST BESTIE SAIFUL FITRI!!

Side by side or miles apart
True friends are always close to your heart
Whether you're turning five or fifty-three
You know that I'm a true friend because you're here beside me
I'm here, right now, on your special day
So lets give a cheer for you, hip, hip, hooray!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

PS: i noe i owe eu one prezzie. And i'm sure gonna give it next month after i got new months cash in my hands coz' now im totally broke. i've already got somethings in my mind only haven't gotten a chance to get it. but lyke what people say best: the thoughts that counts best but for now the prezzie can wait. :)



baby, i swear; it's eu.....Y
11:05 PM





Sunday, May 11, 2008



the wording said:
'its hard for two people to love each other
when they are in two different worlds. BUT
when these two world collides and become
one, that's what you call YOU & I'


-LOVE EU!-


till this week, i've not make a new ez-link card for myself. still using boyfie's to & fro from school. even so, i'm using boyfie's ez-link card but still he's fetching me from school everyday. even if i've said that there's isn't a need too but he still hesitate it. boyfie didn't mind using some of his pocket money just to fetched me & spend a little tyme, see-ing my face & smiles. everyday we met, he would say 'I MISS EU DEAR!' plus kiss on the forehead before i went in the house. gosh! i just felt lucky to have him. he cares & lurve me lots. *hugs. mwah.
talking about fetching, the only differents is that he would just fetched me at Boonlay MRT interchange/ Lakeside MRT interchange instead of Simei MRt station. if he would fetched me from Lakeside, that means we will be going to his house to visit 'mama'- his mom, dad, siblings, rest, eat, watching TV before i will be headed home.(*haha. i told eu before- his house its lyke mine now *grin) there's also one straight bus from his bus-stop area to mine. if he would fetched me from BoonLay, then we would walked all the way home from the interchange. *haha. that's what i called daily exercise :) what to do.. need to do it for saving some cost :)
since my ez-link card was lost last week, this week i've been going home straight. didn't get a chance to visit his family. usually it would be on the thurs but since i got the chance of Realwork i go for it. making extra ka-ching :) sorie 'mama'. i'll visit eu sometime next week. thought of going there yesterday but boyfie said what's the point going there... no internet, x-box etc. 'mama' heard that & she kept quiet the whole day. awh! boyfie, eu are in trouble :P so i didn't go there too but instead boyfie came here. *haha. it didnt really mine for me coz' at least i'll still be able to see & be with him :) chats, spend tyme with my family, sibling & grandma since she's here. asking grandma how is she since he noes grandma was sick yesterday & thanks to her 'wife in law' (my mom) & grand-daughter she is fine now :) almost spend the whole day with him :)
Thanks for everything dear... *hugs. muuaacckkz..
my weekends is just being home with my lurve ones :)
NOT FORGETTING..
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!
Mom's smiles can brighten any moment,
Mom's hugs put joy in all our days,
Mom's love will stay with us forever
and touch our lives in precious ways...

The values you've taught,
the care you've given,
and the wonderful love you've shown,
have enriched my lifein more ways than I can count.
I LOVE YOU, Mom!
today, gonna bring my mom & grandma to a surprise dinner from the family. they didnt have any idea where we would be bring them & they didnt even noe that there will be a surprise. haha.. great drama team :) it will just go smoothly. cant wait for it.. so excited... *haha
I wish I could tell you, Mom
how much you mean to me....
But there are no words to say
how much I admire you...
how much I appreciate you...
how much I thank you
for everything you've done.
Thanks. Happy Mother's day,mom
specially:
(from iRa & siblings)
[PS: i've got BCT (prac) test tomorrow... wish me luck :)]


baby, i swear; it's eu.....Y
3:30 PM





Sunday, May 04, 2008



i still feel as if school has just started..
but SHOCKING-LY its already been 3 weeks now & one of my AC prac test has past...
*without mie even noticing it. tyme do fly fast when everything is in the way :)

talking about AC practical test..
i think my group did fairly alrite. although we did it slightly slow but still able to finish it within the tyme limit. *thank GOD. but i feel kinda shock coz' im not so nervous as i usually did. maybe becoz' its a group werk so i might have the courage & support from them. maybe not physically but internally. *haha.
after 1 hr of AC practical..
went to meet my dearest bestie, Syafiq since he is out of camp for 4 days till the weekends. as usual will meet him up whenever we are free. meet up for chats, catching up tymes & as usual being sarcastic.. *haha. lalal. :)
takecare bestie. have fun going thailand next month. im super jealous. hmph! meet eu up again soon :)

the weekends; Saturday(03-05-08)...
it was fun with a plus-plus etc.. eu will get what i meant after reading everything.
1st, went to the swimming complex as planned together with Huda, her boyfie(Anash) & my beloved boyfie. Reached swimming complex around 11.30am & had all the fun till 5.30pm including the lunch & break we had inbetween. imagine those long hours of swim. how exciting it will be. furthermore, lunch was prepared by my beloved boyfie. :) During the swim, bumped on to Umar & his cuzzie. he was shouting our names from far with his hands waving & smiling.1st heard was Huda's name then myself. i just could not recognised him after stepping 1 or 2 meters forward then i notice it was him. gosh! he really looked different without his specs on. had asked him to tagged along but he didnt want since his gf (Shasha) could not make it. it was really surprising to saw him then.
there was sure lots of fun & laughter going on together but unfortunately it doesnt lasted that long. somehow, my ezlink card got misplaced. realised it only when we were about to leave the place. not blaming anyone. not myself or boyfie coz' everyone did mistake & careless. maybe its just fated for the ezlink to be lost. boo-boo. now, i'm figuring a way to make myself a new card. just wished, if there's a tree growing lots of ka-ching($$) & we could just pluck it. that would be fun. but..dream on iRa. that wont happen. *haha. the silents was not meant that im sad/cursing coz' of the lost. i accept the fate. only thinking how would i go school on monday. since the ezlink counter will be closed today so i cant get it done. *argh! thinking. told boyfie not to blame himself for everything but he felt bad about it & cried when he sent me off at the doorstep. i even told him not to whine it/talk about it to his parents but he still did. now he received a punishment from his dad that will be not being able to eat for the whole day tomorrow. gosh! im really worried for him. his check up is in a weeks tyme from now & he still have to go thru this. luckily boyfie lil' sis is close to me & told me about it if not, i dont think he will tell me anything about it. i promise myself that i wont eat anything the whole day too until he did. i will noe whenever he eats from his lil' sis. i didnt want him to carry this burden alone. if he suffer then i will suffer too. it was not his fault wholely too. furthermore, i've always believe in a fair relationship. each hardship, fun, laughter will be gone thru together including money cases. we will sort things out each other. so if he has to suffer, then i will too. i love eu dear.

PS: thanks Dira(boyfie lil'sis). when there's anything update me alrite :) hugs


baby, i swear; it's eu.....Y
11:55 AM