Saturday, August 23, 2008
pardon me for the lack of updates. its either im just too busy with the hectic schedule, waiting for the net to really get started for me or im just lazyyyyyy. (you decide)
so here's the whole lots week updates...
14/08/08- spent my memoriable moments with my babydear. as usual, school do ends early for every thursday. catch a movie called 'love guru' at AMK hub. the show was cute and funny although most of it was quite lame but who cares. i did enjoy it somehow. haha. other than that, did enjoy my time being accompany by babydear. those sweet moments of just us.. love you baby. i surely do.
15/08/08- i think ive received my assurance, comfort, attention that i've need today. at last i'm feeling this feeling. hopefully it will last this way. im no longer feeling in doubt, lost or what so ever. always been wanting this feeling and i'm sure lurving it now. i could no longer feel as if im always the 2nd and the least important. even though i noe the truth but i no longer feeling the pressure. im feeling so belong to someone now.. love you lots my baby..
20/08/08- AC practical phase test. yeah! hopefully, this result will help. lurving it lots. i manage to get through all the sections withing 30mins. going through it smoothly. *jump-jump. can't afford to drop my GPA. its either maintain it or improve it. oh gosh! please-please. finger cross.
after test and since its still early, went out with my gfs darlinks to bugis : huda & sasha. first intention was just to buy a new top for myself but in the end i bought new shoes. haha. it cost almost $20 at the 1st shop and $10 at the 2nd, but we burgain and bought it at $9. even if its only $1 but its worth it. haha. thanks to my gf for the patience they had to shop with me. kept going in circles to survey. i just can't make any decision for myself. everything just seems so nice. i could not make my mind what to buy first. from tops to shoes to sunglasses. thanks to huda for recommending. now i just cant make any decision. and whats worst is- they kept saying its pretty on me. gosh! how i wish i got the money to buy all. argh! i wish i was a 'tai-tai'. will be going there again this week if sasha and me got the money. we gonna shop!!! *lalaaalaaa.
i know you babes were tired and i owe you babes manicure.
babes, you just whine about it all the way throughout the journey.. raye alrite?? :) :)
** at the same time,im feeling so argh!! too often i ask myself what does it take for me to get to the top? or how does it feel like to be others. lately i find myself giving in to others even if it means that i'll be the one at the loosing end. being me, it gets real hard for me to accept things when they dont turn out the way i expected. and by then, i'll brood over it and it'll turn over to angst over time. but where matter of heart is concern, i'll be the last one standing.
21/08/08- MLP theory class test. i swear at these moment i really have no mood to study. im just feeling so.... down. the whole day was just tears, confuse. my mind was not really at set. i only study for the test when i'm on the way to school in the train. *ptff-ptff... who cares anyway. plus, the paper sucks. i vomit out whatever i could remember. no high hope for this test. just wish me luck.
** i really thought ive received my assurance, comfort, attention the other day. but oh well. now its over!! too often i ask myself what does it take for me to get to the top? or how does it feel like to be others. lately i find myself giving in to others even if it means that i'll be the one at the loosing end. being me, it gets real hard for me to accept things when they dont turn out the way i expected. and by then, i'll brood over it and it'll turn over to angst over time. but where matter of heart is concern, i'll be the last one standing. now im really at the loosing end. i have always known it's never gonna be possible again. it's just that i refused to grasp the actual situation. good things always comes to an end. and i should have known that the end has already happened long ago before this.
i will definately cherish all those moments. those smiles, fun, laughter whenever i'm with you. but now i need that space to really wake up from all those whinings. i noe, ive been skipping lots of meals and not been taking good care of my health. no worries. i'll be just fine.
you'll never know what life has in store for you.
now im facing the fact that you are only just a friend.
PS: i cant believe i had no other scandals while im with him. thats a big shock. cause ive always had flings with the ex(s). i did it coz' i realise he is precious. too precious for me to go fooling around. BUT now who cares. i'm ME!
2 more test to go before i really need to start mugging and concentrate for the final exam. AC theory test on monday and MLP practical test on tuesday. argh!
baby, i swear;
it's eu.....Y
6:30 PM
Monday, August 11, 2008
baby, i swear;
it's eu.....Y
10:50 AM
Sunday, August 10, 2008
HAPPY SECOND MONTHS, LOVE.
♥
** it has never been easy. since the first time we actually got together. i’ve been trying hard to face and accept things as it is. it’s no longer about trust, insecure etc. i’ve build and gotten them thru' you. now, it’s just a random feeling within me that is just so hard to explain. sometime, i just give in to those feelings so i won’t feel so much about it coz’ i myself don’t know why i have the feeling in the first place. it just come and go. i don’t know if i did it just so not to hurt other feelings or simply can’t be bothered by all the recent happening. i'm even confuse what is the recent happening in the first place. maybe this is what happens when you give in too frequent and others took it for granted? or what happens when you give in too much and your feelings got neglected. at times i do feel like giving up everything. but i always end up finding myself holding on to many things too close to me. and it gets real hard. i suppose all i need was someone to give me assurance, comfort, attention when i needed one.. :X
enuf of my above emo-ing shit..
back to what’s been happening thru out the week..
(yesterday) 0908- HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! it was really one of a hell yea day. spend my National Day at Marina Bay with my darlink babydear. not forgetting with my laughter buddy,baby's bro-Syafiq. haahaa. really-really enjoy my day lots. meet baby and his bro at AMK then off to City Hall. damn, what to more to expect. the crowd was really.. kay, im totally speechless. baby really hug me tight so i won't get lost. lurving it. hehe. in the train itself there's already fun and laughter. Syafiq just can't stop laughing and i kept entertaining him till baby ask me to stop. oops. hey, we were suppose to have fun. :P had our lunch cum dinner at Marina Square Long John Silver. then,baby went smoking while walking to our destination. imagine the long walks.. haiz. i just hate those road blocks. it really makes us turn one big round before we reached the place where actually we can just walk pass through it and wahlaa.. reached. unfortuanately, it drizzle abit. luckily, there's this uncle to save us by borrowing us their extra umbrella. thanks uncle. thanks to baby too for making new friend. haahaa. too lots of photos, lots of fun and laughter, smiles, hugs and kisses, scream and shouts etc. it was just purfect being there with your loved ones. njoy the day lots. after the firewerk, meet my bro for awhile at esplanade the he walked off with his friends while Syafiq, baby and me sat down at earshot at esplanade to have our rest and drinks. not forgetting, the playing cards moments for more fun before headed home. :) misses each other even we have spent the whole day with one another. just can't get enuf of it. ily baby.♥
(pictures will be updated soon- it's with my sunshine babydear)
(wednesday) 0608- HAPPY 20th ANNIVERSARY to my MOM & DADDY!♥
and it is absolutely sweettt to see my dad bought for my mom a rose and a card during their anniversary. just lyke old tyme huh? aawwhh!! still lurving strong... :)
(tuesday) 0508- it sure brings out another great smile for the day. smiley-smiley. as usual,lesson ends at 1pm. first,had lunch at cafe1 before headed to Cathay. have not eaten anything for the day, what to do. must eat. rite baby? haha. went Cathay, decided to watch The Mummy 3 - Tomb of the Dragon Emperor at 4.15pm. while waiting for the time to pass, hang around at Ben & Jerry and had our drinks (im still full okay at that tyme) as well as helping babydear to copy out his notes during his miss up lessons. gosh! im so gona be fat soon. haaa. but its ok. babydear is feeding me well.haha. not forgetting those chats, fun, laughter and lalallaa as usual.. movie was great. worth every cents watching. everyone should watch. it's a great-great show. really had a great-great time together. wish we didn't have to leave and went home. i just didn't have enough of you baby. no doubts. im truely loving you. ♥♥
baby, i swear;
it's eu.....Y
9:30 PM
Saturday, August 02, 2008
im missing you every tyme we depart
im know that those love in the air now
lurving it coz' it is just meant for us. ily baby... ♥
my week was REALLY awesome.. tell me about it. -.- *jump-jump.
- meet up at 12pm and bought tix for a movie called 'money not enough 2'
- did some window-shopping and babydear bought me a green ripcurl slipper. love the green. thanks baby. ♥
- had our breakfast cum lunch at banquet. we ate western..
- chill,relax at Vivo's roof top till 3pm. (playing pokercards, take photos, teasing one another etc.)
- had drinks and cheese cake at Gloria Jean's, chats, laughter till nearly 5pm.
- watch movie at 5pm. the show was great. baby and me almost cry but didn't.
- bought hot chocolate since its frezzing cold after the movie at 7-11store.
- chill by the bay facing sentosa, chats, spending time moments.
- home. reached home before 10pm.
pictures..
[p.s: sorie peeps lazy to story out in paragraph form.]
thursday, went school for AC and MLP theory lesson and not forgetting BCT excursion to Singapore Science Centre. (of all the other places why science centre. imagine together wilth all those primary school kids.) haha. ptff.. given some worksheets to answer and must hand it in on monday. topics related- water & genomes. but relatively, we did have more time having fun than answering those questions. haha. as usual. what to expect rite? love those moments spend by babydear's side. NOT forgetting also with my dearest classmates. :)
(picture will be updated as soon i got them in my hands)
friday, i skip school again. oops. really can't be bothered to attend just for 1 lecture. furthermore it only last for 2 hrs. 8-10am. instead i choose to continue sleeping than waking up so early. haha. thanks eh babydear. you know what i mean. haha. but on the other hand, this time i didn't went out. just staying at home all afternoon. hoping and praying hard that time will fly fast till tonight. i simply can't wait to meet babydear after his band practice. just misses him so much. yea. band today, band tomorrow. haha. sure gonna have lots of time spending together. loving it. ♥ :)
saturday seemed to be much better than my any other weekends. met the gfs, huda.♥ initial plan was Marina Bay to catch the firework but intead we went to bugis as well for our window shopping. haha. my 1st shopping plan was to actually bought a hotpants for myself but instead i bought myself this pretty tube top. huda seems jealous about it. sorie babe. but overall, its was super great fun with all those fun and laughter. its been awhile since we went out lyke this. :)
** (pictures updated!)
baby, i swear;
it's eu.....Y
9:45 PM
