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Thursday, January 22, 2009
I'VE PACKED.
I WONT BE HOME FOR TOMORROW(friday) AFTER WERK.
(but will be back the next day)

I'M CELEBRATING MY WHOLE LNY HOLIDAY WITH MY LOVES ONES. :) :)
SAYANG-SAYANG!! MWAAHH!!


before going home from work, my partner and I was being called to the office. we are like 'huh? getting pay so early huh?' but then it wasnt. the company was being so generous. me and my partner got red packets for this festive season. yea-yea, a blue note :) an extra amount for this month salary. :) :) and i've got myself a god uncle at work. heehee. another red note :) *count yourself alrite. shh! my partner doesnt know this. hehee. sorry Ben.
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PS: whatever lah eh. its my blog anyway. i have the right to say whatever i think. whether its my judgement or what so ever, its still me. thanks to my itchy fingers, i found you. maybe its best if i DIDNT! Oops, I FORGOT. YOU'RE A TOTALLY A RUDE PERSON. WITH NO BASIC MANNERS. MAYBE YOU DONT EVEN UNDERSTAND. BEFORE YOU SAY PEOPLE, REFLECT ON YOURSELF. YOU THINK YOURE ALL PERFECT? SOME PEOPLE JUST DONT LIKE YOU TOO, REALISE THAT. I THINK YOU HAVE MORE HATERS THEN ME SIA.
and oh, about ex-beau. i dont only contact with him. im still in touch with most of them. so? what's your problem. in fact, i dont live around with hated. if they are sincere enuf, they are sure my friend. i dont delete of friends out of my life like you. (except for your jerk,i swear.) should i applause since he's the 1st? thanks ar. i'll tend to forgive but never-never forget. keep that in mind. we are in the world of making friends not enemies, UNlike you.


*serve that jerk right.
i'll be the most happiest person.

baby, i swear; it's eu.....Y
11:30 AM





Wednesday, January 21, 2009
to her,
oh my goodness, i thought you've said you are SO OVER IT!! then what's with the thinking and blaming. hey move on-lah, get a life. im no longer bragging, blaming and thinking about it. your jerk is totally off my list. you can have that jerk all yours to yourself. if you wanna say you are nobody, somebody or whatever thats your own prob-lah. you got your say. i got no comment to your own perception. i just dont want to get involve in any of it. if you wanna hate me, i dont give a damn/care. as if i dont hate that jerk. i hate that jerk 10times more. and oh please, dont accuse me that i drag my friends along to this, they just got to read my entry that all. overall, i just dont get it what you still want from me. ptff!
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kay, enuf of whining above. i dont understand why though. just let her say whatever she has too. im no longer going to just sit there anymore too. like everyone said, i dont gain anything for being nice. i have enuf.
simply enuf.
erm, let talk about IA alrite, its already been 2 months, and another 2 more months to go. whoohoo.. im so looking forward for graduation. already feeling sick of IA but it's sure a great experience though. but some things just kept me wondering, how these people endure and manage to do the same thing and face the same people from day to day? maybe they work for the money to support the family and personal needs. *wonders*
and know what's more interesting, today, the prince of Brunei came to my work place to buy some fishes. with the TP's escorting the prince car. 1st tyme, real life. since we only see it on TV. heehee. kay,imagine just going to Singapore to do that. infact some of the fishes are from its own country. i guess he must also have some stuff to attend here obviously. the prince cant just be coming here for the fishes rite? i ask the uncles around why?, they simply answer the current rate here is much cheaper than their own country. imagine, eg: a clownfish here would cost only around a dollar/ two, but back to their own country the price almost double, it cost nearly 5 bucks. gosh! how much profits could they simply earn...

lastly, not forgetting...

HAPPY BELATED 20th BIRTHDAY to MY DEAREST BRO, HUZ
on 19th Jan 09.

i know it's late. but the thoughts that count isnt it? heehee. thanks for being there for me bro. sorry no prezzie, all i could do is just wish. :) hope you have a splendid birthday and a fruitful lyfe ahead. remember your lil' sis here is always here for you. :) :)

gtg people, myBBYBOY on the line :):)
wanna get into my mushy moments. heehee.

baby, i swear; it's eu.....Y
11:00 PM







'every girl needs that guy who she can wrap her arm around.
the one who will kiss her on the forehead when she's sleeping.
the one to wipe away her tears and tell her she's beautiful.
the guy who just doesn't compare to anyone else.'

i dont know why, suddenly... argh! i hate it when i feel so out of place, out of the mind and out of everything. i thought i knew, but little did i know. fuck it. fuck every single thing ah..
you know a feeling where you want to run away but couldn't? because, something stopped you or just cos you are too used to that kinda feeling.. that's how i felt, every now and then. i tried, tried my very best to brush it away.. but? with no effort at all. how i wish i was immune to that kind of feelings, like how my body is already immune to painkillers, even the stronger ones. but somehow, someday, i know this feeling gonna kill me...


"God places the heaviest burden,
on those who can carry its weight."
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bby asked me to kill my NEGATIVE THOUGHTS!
but im still scared.

baby, i swear; it's eu.....Y
1:00 AM





Tuesday, January 20, 2009
oh damn it, my day could be any more worst. for some reasons, it just spoil my tuesday morning, today. darn! early in the morning things already happen and it totally pissed me off. what a day...

scenario 1 : totally my fault. i accept it. but this is not the major cause that totally spoil my morning.
basically, i woke up late today. supposingly to wake up at 6.45am. my alarm rang but i turned it off and continue sleeping till 7am. my eyes just couldnt take it. been sleeping late lately. haish! but, even it's already 7am, im not late. my schadule timing to went out of my house is still 7.45am. the only thing is i only need to rush since i only have 45mins of getting ready, bathe and etc.. so i just grab any shirt and pants and poff! im off. i dont even wear eyeliner today. just natural me. hehee.

scenario 2 : feeling irritated.
as soon as i've reached the bus stop. there were two typical ite mats. 'alamak, lau nk puji aku pun, jgn lah kuat2.' one of them say, 'lawa seh pompuan tu. point finger at me' gosh! wearing simple lyke this pun pretty. crazy. (not to self praise, but its true, i myself am frustrated too.) they wanted to approach but the bus save my day. phew! they were not taking the bus since they were waiting for one of their friend. they mumble about it. loudly. haish! what's with guys these days.
i thought that will be the end, then i guess there's more. *sigh!

scenario 3 : this is what pissed me off most. till it spoil my day. argh!
imagine-lah, im already going to be late. as soon as i've reached interchange, i just walk towards the MRT station. then i walked pass this group of mat-mat. (different mat then scenario 2, okie) okielah, my main motive is to catch that train. then heard one of the mat calling ' U..u...' i thought it was someone else, till one of the 'makcik' said to me that my friend was calling. ' lyke what? if it was my friend, obviously i would stop, smile or say hi, right? ' then i looked back and saw he came towards me. he then grabbed my hand and make me turn towards him and asked 'U nk gi aner pagi-pagi ni?' with that kinda tone. 'i was like hello? i dont even know you.' i said to him, he got the wrong person and walked off. he then grabbed my hand and said, ' tk, i dapat orang yang betul. i nk kenal-kenal ngan u leh? ' then i ignore and walked off (i need to catch that train) but he and his friends kept following me, taking the same train and kept pestering. 'oh my goodness, cam matair seh tgh gaduh pagi-pagi. padahal-padahal. [he's the one questioning, asking, do the talking while i just show my frust face and ignore with my earpiece on. and he's the one, removing it to hear his rants. idiot] orang dah bingit2 pun tk paham2 ke. im totally not interested. ' i was really pissed already at that moment. just wished i could just walked off from them and change place. but the train was already crowded. barely could move. even i have to stand during that moment. so he kept ranting infront of me with his hand on the glass where i was standing. idiot. i shove it off couple of tymes but it still didnt get into his head. 'bengam nye mat, getting on my nerves early morning. ptff.' his friends still could entertain him. 'what the hack!' luckily he and his friends went off at Raffles. and he even have the cheek to say ' bye syg. jgn noti2. kite jumpe lagi,kay. nnti i kol.' 'mak kau, mcm paham siak ni mat, bbual world. you dont even have my number sey. i dont even want to give you. i swear i didnt want to meet you again.' thanks to you, you spoil my tuesday morning.

i smses some of my besties and bby while the mat-mat was ranting by himself. these were their responds.
my bby: ' nasib i tkde ngan u, lau ader tadi, da lame budak tu tdo. '
bestie, syafiq: ' leh jln gaduh sak gini. '
exbeau, asnor: ' lau i ader, dah lame seh bdk tu kene sepak. tkde keje. '

see how concern they are toward me. im lucky im having you guys in my lyfe even as friends/ more. sayang-sayang. :) :)

baby, i swear; it's eu.....Y
8:30 PM





Monday, January 19, 2009

I believe we write out own stories and each time we think we know the end, we don't.
Perhaps luck exists somewhere between the world of planning, the world of chance,
and the peace that comes from knowing, that you just can't know it all.
BUT You know, life's funny that way.
Once you let go of the wheel, you might end up right where you belong.

if you search your heart & listen to its instruction,
you'll find where you belong.

im missing my BBYBOY!

baby, i swear; it's eu.....Y
10:45 PM






my saturday was splendid with both of my besties, huda-darlz & asnor-exbeau. no true plan, everything was simply last minute except for playing pool. heehee. firstm huda have doubts playing. but now, all the three of us knows how to play the game. cheh! i give credits to you tau huda, dah pandaikn skrg. heehee. pro tau she play now. dont play-play. cheh-cheh, jgn kembang, kay sayang. us playing pool was fun. the fun, laughter, jokes, atmosphere but the guys surround us was kinda pain in the ass. irritating betol seh. 'cam tk pernah npk pompuan.' not to self-praise lah. (mcmlah aku ni lawa sgt.) even huda & exbeau said im pretty that day. but im basically just normal. just normal, okie. huda is also pretty. no doubt. then suddenly exbeau was kinda angry, he rant his frust on the game when he was playing with me. 'dier maen geram2, aku lak yg kalah. padahal, im on the lead seh.' just becoz' they kept teasing & looking at our direction. dont jealous-jealous,kay. chill, must maintain macho. yea. & know what, they even manage to say 'bye' to me when we are going off. 'siak je, cam aner exbeau aku tak hot. ni aru exbeau, lom agi mybby. mati korang agaknye. heehee. '

after pool, meet up with my bro since he called & was around the area too. weird but true. 'manerlah ader adk nk kluar ngan kakak kn bile ngan member. first tyme' his friends are my friends too. i know them. we grew up together except for Suhaimi. sorie Ami. but now we are friends rite? heehee. catch up with him & his friends then off to dinner at Esteller77. after all the delicious food, we walked all the way to PS & shop-shop. woohoo.. hehee. then chat, chill & off home.
[know what, when i got home.. BBY called. i got to know my bro contact my bby. my bro thought i was with him. haahaa. whereas he's at werk, werking. boo-boo. he knows im going out with huda & exbeau.]

(pictures to enjoy)
-click to enlarge.

baby, i swear; it's eu.....Y
10:30 PM





Friday, January 16, 2009
It's been a long time, hasn't it? Sorry. I miss this ranting space of mine as much as i miss alot of people. So.. Here's abit of update.

i'm basically sick last few days. flu & fever. gotten myself a mc for 2days(wednesday,thursday). actually i didnt want too, but i cant basically carry myself up to work. yea. till that bad. thanks to this IA, i carry myself to the clinic just for the mc. hear that, just for the mc. sigh! eventhough its free. i go clinic for free & yet i didnt want too. crazy rite? everyone knows how much i hate doctors coz' of the medicine reason. yucks. a total NO! & this tyme, i guess some of my friends will be amaze since i do take them coz' i wanna go work. why skip work when things are just so slack. we basically eat more, rest more than we really work. at least it kills my bore at home. it really is when all the kids are in school, the house is just so quiet. aargh!

thanks for my darlings ones for their care & concern. im fine now. im back to werk. :) :) jump-jump.

baby, i swear; it's eu.....Y
11:30 PM





Sunday, January 11, 2009
Staying at home doesnt sucks at much as what i've expected. Reason being, because i dont feel lyke it and im just sick. im sleeping at home till 4.30pm after going to my cousin house for religious lesson. " tdo tk ingat dunia sia, iRa " being a Mummy's gurl for the day wont be that bad. futhermore, i've always gone out on every weekends & now would be the tyme for a Mummy & daughter talk. need to catch up some things. heehee. gosh! i just hated myself being sick. its irritating. Cure soon, i need to go work tomorrow. thanks for those who show concern towards me when im sick. appreciate lots. dont ask me to eat med, coz' definately i wont. :P i dont lyke any. :) :)

i keep this short. nyte ppl. i need my rest now. someone bugging me to sleep already.
okie2, im going now, friend. ptFF!

baby, i swear; it's eu.....Y
11:59 PM





Saturday, January 10, 2009

ive got another great day on saturday with my miss friends. :)

ive got a date with Umar & Sasha to Poly open house. [in order from SP-NP-RP]. meet Umar under my void deck at 11.30am then proceed on meeting Sasha at Dover before going to the Open houses. Sasha & me only aim to the Applied Science School since thats what we are only interested. im considering either Biomedical Science/ Biotech. Umar seems to be considering to change to engineering course. he is basically not interesting in science anymore, but graduate with this course first,kay. its left with the final stretch, then you decide.
All the polys are okay. we manage to go all the 3polys before 5pm. heehee. most of the doubts have be answered. now i clearly know whats the different. now, the only think is just hoping there's space for ITE students. coz' they really take in minumum number of us. most piority is to the O'levels grad.
(bumped onto Haresh,Yian Cheng & Amin when we are on the way to RP.)
Glad to meet Syaz at NP. oh gosh! we really didnt care the surrounding when we meet, shouting each other name, run towards each other & hug. haha. :) she is taking biotech there. been persuading me upon taking her course. coz' to her, biotech is more related to what i've been studying now. which is basically true but thinking of what my school teachers said that its hard for an ITE student to get in is another. eventhough there is some who got through, no doubt. alrite2 babe, i maybe considering & trying my luck if i were to put it as my choice.
^its still deciding; biomedical, biotech.
i guess i should either call Syazrul/ Zul for info under biomedical. since they are taking that particular course. only then i could clearly decide. :) :) :) :)

" We all can use a little hope sometimes, you know.
That feeling that everything is gonna be okay
& that there's gonna be someone there to help make sure of that."

baby, i swear; it's eu.....Y
11:55 PM





Friday, January 09, 2009

I wish, i could say it out to you. But, the words just couldn't come out.

If only, you could swim deep inside. Deeper into this heart of mine.
So that you could find something, that you can never find.

i miss the BBYBOY! I miss spending time with himm!! =/
& I'm having the nightmares too.

' There's something about you,
that made me coming back.
No matter how you hurt me.
No matter what you do.
Trust me, i've always love you. '

baby, i swear; it's eu.....Y
11:40 PM






*jump-jump* i get to meet my darlinks and cliques after so long. im so so so missing them-lah. even if its just only 2months since we've gone attachment. see-ing them just makes me smile. i never felt so much better. :) :) :) after the meet-up & talk from the head, then off to meet MR Oliver about the NYAA report thingy. i just hate whenever there's anything got to do with the NYAA thingy. things are just barely so draggy. settled some stuff then have lunch. ohhh!! i just miss school food. i miss school.
after filling our stomach, we headed down to TP open house with Wan, Danny, Daniel, Fang & Yian Cheng. Bump onto Salehah & Najlaa, chat awhile before headed separate ways. Along the way, then bumped to Umar, Sasha & Huz. join them after that. TP is so happening *but unfortunately damn far from my house* & there's sure lots of friendly people around.. Sasha will understand about it. rite? remember the cute guy that bring us round the school. then leave after he bring us to the Applied Health Science School where we are more interested coz' he is from enginnering. then, we always will bumped onto each other as we explore around after those questioning & clarifying. then he will then give me that cheeky smile and say 'aik, pompuan cute ni lagi.' and i & him will laugh & you will giggle looking at us. remember? *okie, perasan aku panggil diri sendiri "cute" but thats what he said* hehee. enuf of that. im will still be only to my dearest BBYBOY. you know that rite BBY? :) sayangyou. most importantly, at least now, i get a clearer view regarding the course that im interested in. :) :) lurving science.

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LASTLY,

HAPPY NS-ing to this EXBEAU of mine.
(happy army-ing, mat-mat army seh skrg.)
we'll catch things up soon when you are out, alrite :)
anything just beep, which is what you've been doing complaining about your NS lyfe.
ptff! relax lah. everything will be just fine :) :) :)

baby, i swear; it's eu.....Y
11:30 PM






& yes.
Regardless of what they wanna say.
Just doesn't matter,much.
Really! Haaaaa.
Oh whatever!
I'm sooooo overrr it!
(:


JERK, YOU CAN TRY TO POISON THEIR MINDS. & YOU CAN TRY TO TELL THEM ANYTHING, THAT MAYBE I HAVEN'T DONE. BECAUSE I DON'T GIVE A FCUKING SCHIT ABOUT YOU, NO MORE! BECAUSE I HATE THE SIGHT OF YOU. IT MAKES ME IRK. AGAIN & AGAIN, YOU PUT IN A WAY THAT I'M ALWAYS WRONG. MAYBE I WAS TOO SOFT HEARTED. IT'S TIME TO NOT CARE. THANKS AH EH "BESTIE"


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i miss MYBBYBOY.

I need something real and we help each other realize,
that everything we want to be,we already are.
& baby,
you're all that i asked for in this life.
And i swear, it's enough.
Iloveyou.

baby, i swear; it's eu.....Y
12:00 AM





Monday, January 05, 2009
" I need you like the ocean needs the tide.
I need you like a fat boy needs his chocolate.
You are my sweet sugar. "

my BBYBOY came over yesterday. *jump-jump, sayang-sayang kamu*. had really a great tyme with BBYBOY and my bro. eversince they know each other, they have been really true 'kamcing'. they even take team to bully me, but my BBY will still persuade me after that. *sweet kn?* thanks to the fun we had & them, i only ended up sleeping at 3am, on BBYBOY lap. see, he even dares to mushy2 with me eventhough with my bro around. hehhe. syg tau BBY i. it started off with sitting down, lying in the pillow, back onto BBY's side to lean on his shoulder and finally to his lap. heehe. kept asking them to count me out as im really tired but they still insist. then, i made a fool out of myself, imagine infront of BBY, still could remember the time when i was already eye-shutting, half dead and still talking. talking to the point, bonus. talking in my own world, paiseh-lah babe. the guys laugh & laugh see-ing me that way. gosh! priceless i tell you. never in my lyfe i act that way. only they know. hehee. night was spent from watching tv, playing x-box, singing & chatting randomly not including those jokes & etc. & know whats more interesting, i have to attend werk the next day while BBY & my bro have to attend school. & i tell you, i damn tired. not forgetting the eyebags. sleeping on the way in the train thru&fro, after break (taking a nap) & tymes whenever i could get the chance. no idea about them, dont ask. my bro seems alrite to me. he could even stay till late at night, while im already asleep as soon as ive finished washing up. evenso, the day was just priceless. i meant everything. im lurving you so much bby.

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to her,
gosh! the problem has been so long and you are still not over it. you should get a life, i think. doesnt mean that im keeping quiet, im letting things easy off too. ive got my rights, ive got my stand. im no longer that kinda girl who sit down and take the blame. i simply have enuf! im tired of being the nice one. if you believe in karma, say whatever you got to say. you got your rights, i dont blame you. but if it hits me, i swear that it will hit that jerk too for whatever he's done. he maybe smart with his words, and i swear i wont fall to it again. i wont fall for a jerk's liar. your words are just lies. simply lies and nothing else. i never regret whatever that had happen, but i only regret trusting the jerk that you're currently in love. i've got nothing to hide and nothing to lose. witness have notice the truth. you wanted prove, i could show you the messages that the jerk sent to me and say all those lying words. ive got no problems showing who's the liar now. changing stories and put the blame on others. im being kind enuf to shut things out. you are damn lucky your jerk is still in a piece coz' some of my bro(s) are sure not happy on how the jerk treat on things. you can keep your jerk to yourself, no doubt. not even friend in my dictionary too.


FURTHERMORE, ive got my own BBYBOY now.
No DOUBT ONLY YOU,BBY!



baby, i swear; it's eu.....Y
11:30 PM





Friday, January 02, 2009
" Love is being comfortable with someone.
Because even though your minds may not know it,
your hearts are having this conversation of their own
and they know that you're meant to be together. "

meet myBBY under the void deck minutes ago. pass him some stuff that he will be needed. Had chats awhile before BBY got to go off to meet his friends. BBY just look effing handsome. With the cap, the outfit etc. gosh! *my-eyes-on-you-BBY* I did asked him to behave well. obviously. then, there goes his cheeky smile. i trust him. always do. :) you know it rite, BBY? :) :) details? BBY's going to his company's belated Christmas Party cum New Year celebration. Lucky him huh? there's also exchanging of gift event. i wonder what he would get from his colleagues. heehee. For his part, he had made a collage for them. putting all the memories pictures, colleagues etc. in a huge frame. thoughtful & creative huh? even its something common already but at least it would lasted forever. see-ing will just brings those memories that they have together. heehee.
Last but not least, BBY gives me a kiss, a hug and asked me to sleep tight (even he knows, i wont. i'll get short sleep, every few hours i'll definately wake up. heehee. ) and a takecare before going off. oowwhh.. im touched. loving & missing you BBY.

Nevertheless, I've been feeling way better. It thought me a lot about everything. us, life and love. & the reason why god brought us together. The reasons why we hold on, the reasons why we do this & that. Because, everything happens for a reason. yes, call it cliche.
& to that, I thank god that you're in my life. I thank god that I found you. Even there's tiffs and challenges around. I know that, you're with me. That even whatever i do, you're still loving me, guiding me. Thank you, for still believing in me. & Mostly, thank you for loving me always. Life's precious, I know! (:

' If you would ask me, how many times a day i think of you,
"i'd say "one"..... because i never stop"
& I have been, I am, and I always will be yours.'

baby, i swear; it's eu.....Y
11:00 PM





Thursday, January 01, 2009
The new year has just approached.
So, i guess it's not too late to wish all of you, "A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!"
Goodbye 2008 & Hello 2009!
2008 was a mess. Don't be cruel to me, 2009.
Let's hope this new year brings light into my life. Start afresh, let's start afresh. (:

i will not turn back and regret for everything that happened. both good or bad. as they always say, its not worth crying over spill milk. one may forgive BUT NEVER FORGET. some things do come to an end.

*ONLY TO THIS CASE: i STILL WANT THAT JERK TO GO DOWN HARD AND BAD!
damn you.

RESOLUTIONS? i dont think im doing any this year, when i haven't achieve any. since there's many things i've yet to achieve, things i have left unattended. not that i'm lazy, nor whatever you called it. & then, i totally missing out the point of the resolution thingy i had in mind. and the most-most important one is :
to start appreciating the boy lots, not that ive not, but in a way much better
in the everyday life of when he's with me or even without me..
well, the fact that i do appreciate his existence in my life, i question him sometimes
but sometimes it's just only me whose overseeing the bigger picture.
with all those questions and thinking. no doubt he's been thinking too.
but he is just too relax upon everything. i just wish i could be like him but i just couldnt.
that i want to try to achieve, slowly.. bit by bit.

"But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all, is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous."

CELEBRATION? oh. i just could ask for any better. Thanks to my long lost senior, Ridzwan and obviously my darling BBYBOY for making up my day. Initial plans was supposing be, Ridzwan picked me up after work, meet up his other friends and their respective gfs and watch movie. but due to unavailable time slot for movie, we decided to slack at town, catch sometimes and chat craps. knowing the girls was great. didnt know we do share lots of things similiarly. enuff that, being with them was basically normal. my BBYBOY called after work. last minute i've decided to meet him up. no particular plans. furthermore, last minute Ridzwan also receive an emergency call from his mom. so that means i have to go home too. but the night still young and i have 'pakat' with my brother that we will be going home together. even without the last minute call from his mother, i would still consider meeting my BBYBOY. im just missing him lots. BBY was kinda mad, since everything was last minute but we still end up meeting. he put on a long face at first, but it turns out okie. BBY introduced me to his work friends. How sweet of him to introduce me as his gurl infront of them, unlike some guys. rite ladies? whats more, its new year. he too darely hug and kiss me in front of all those ppls(crowds), potraying im his. yes, I AM HIS! especially to all those passerby(s) too. sweeeetttt huh? i know. heehee. sayesayangsayangkamu, BBY. knowing his friends was nice. they were sure one joker. just manage to make ones laugh no matter what. went cheers and 7-11 to buy drinks * (paham-paham je lah eh)* before we went to find a place to chill. oh, it adds on to the days i've own. kinda miss the firework coz' we are in the shop. but still manage to get to see the glimps of it. chill, chat, laughter till 2+am. by the time, i was freaking stress, there's no cab available. as expected. reached home at 3am with BBY. By that tyme, my bro waiting under the void deck already. heehee. BBY came over too. ::)

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BBY,
I'm sorry for all my doings, these days. Maybe i'm just been thinking too much. But i don't meant to do those things to you. I swear, i don't. I'm still loving you hard and strong. Forgive me, my love. Unreasonable being me. I am. Forgive me, your love.

Things happen for a reason. & sometimes, it came without we realising it. I didn't know that it will happen this way. Nor do i predict that it will happen. But, still. Im sorry for whatever had happened though. Hoping you would forget & forgive. Im willing to sacrifice for anything. & you knew it. Even if you don't believe. Do have a little trust and faith in me. I LOVE YOU, BBY. ALWAYS. ♥

You know that even how i treated you, I will still love you the same. Sometimes, i fail to let you know my inner feelings. & sometimes, i may tend to keep quiet.. But, you can know that i will always love you. My heart doesn't lie when it says something. & my heart beats together, with yours. and I know, you might me saying 'action speaks louder than words.' I know. I'm sorry. Only words can tell. Only words can tell that i'm sorry. That i miss you, so much too.

'Arguments,tiffs & whatnots are just phases of this relationship.
Stay strong with me, baby love.'

[PS: BBY will be werking today. OH.. pity my BBYBOY, bet he will be tired. ITS NEW YEAR AND YET STILL HAVE YET TO WERK. 'cari duit babe, rajinkn.' sayang-sayang BBY. i guess im just going to be home.]

[P.P.S: lyke finally i get my hair treatment and cut.:),
BBY cut his hair too. :) he look effing cute. :)- I KEEP MY EYES ON YOU.]



baby, i swear; it's eu.....Y
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